#i wrote a damn essay

[keferon]

sentinel x himsekf because rhe bastard is too self-absorbed to give a crap about anyone else (this is affectionate what an asshole <3)

Yep! If I would decide to assign some poor soul to be his love interest I would pick someone who could knock him off his feet you know? Make him spiral into fear or envy or some crazy level of competitiveness. Make him feel that he isn't the center of the world. Kick him out of his self centered balance.

Because yeah he doesn't think about others at all if they aren't threatening his ego. Which is. No bot in the movie fit that criteria. Sentinel is simply too powerful to care about (let's say)Megatron. And too egotistical to even notice everyone else

[transldpdl]

LDPDL | What can the damned really say to the damned

[man-down-in-hatchet-town]

The weird thing about the... erm... tense place Ani holds in the history of Starkid and the fandom is that Ani positivity has now sort of become this... beacon of joy for me personally? Like don't get me wrong I'm so happy whenever people say they love Twisted or Hatchetfield or AVPM or one of the more popular shows, but nothing sparks Starkid fandom joy quite like people talking about what they love about Ani.

[acaptainbyanyothername]

Midst spoilers for S3 E16: Trustfall

This is sort of just a jumble of my own interpretation of Phineas and Jonas’ dynamic (which is definitely influenced by my being aspec and having a strange understanding of romance) but I honestly don’t think the kiss complicates their relationship any more than it already is complicated. I feel like their overall dynamic would have been relatively unchanged if they hugged in that moment instead of kissed. Phineas said it best— they’re each others’ person. They both made atrocious mistakes and fucked each other up, but at the end of the day they love each other. When going into this episode, I had no idea if they were going to kiss or not (I knew both were possibilies, but didn’t know the direction it was going to take). But I knew based on their respective arcs and views of each other they were going to plan their futures in conjunction. They were always going to be the most important person to each other. They just so happen to be similar-aged and both attracted to each other, so they used a kiss to demonstrate that to each other instead of other methods of affection. I think trying to wrestle them into typical “romantic” or “platonic” boundaries will always fundamentally miss an aspect of their dynamic. They both fucked each other up, but they want to work through it and plan a path forward. They are the most important person to each other, and they demonstrated in multiple ways througout they episode, one of them being a kiss.

[storywestistrash]

i am actually so tired of the way westerners treat eastern europeans

[gallifreyanwriter]

Sparkbird day 7: Fall

Fall is a fascinating song. There was a period of time where I was too depressed to listen to it, it does deal with some dark themes and intense heartbreak, but the depth of emotion through its mundanity really hits hard.

As for the art, I truly only meant to draw the face here. But it turned into a whole screenshot redraw of the original 2008 Fall music video, and a sort of love letter to Stephan's initial appeal to me. I first found this song when I was sixteen, and I watched all of their videos over and over again. Most of them,at that time, had this exact background. I grew to find it familiar, even though Stephan and I had never met. It felt odd, and sort of intimate--staring into a stranger's home, into their poorly-lit kitchen/living room, as they pour out their soul in hopes that someone is listening.

And I was, Stephan. I was listening.

[canisvesperus]

If you don’t like the concept of a redemption arc I think you might be miserable.

[erros429]

i feel like i see a lot of people praising nora’s “be strong and hit stuff” moment in volume 8 and i’m like??? no!!!!! that’s not supposed to be something we’re cheering on!! she is reducing herself to having one personality trait and was left with scars b/c of it. yeah, she's badass but that wasn't the takeaway you were supposed to have from that scene?? she is so much more than someone who can "hit stuff." she was operating under the assumption that that's all she is, and that was quite literally self-destructive for her. that's the entire reason she's being set up to have an arc outside of her relationship with ren; so she can find out more about herself

[dbphantom]

Hate having adhd went to go work on my fallout modpack, got distracted while going to disable the steam overlay, ended up in the points shop, went to go edit my profile, decided to change my pfp, found a buried folder I forgot existed, found some old Veneer art I forgot existed, spent 45 minutes looking at all the old photos, STILL HAVE NOT TOGGLED ONE SIMPLE OPTION THAT SHOULD'VE TAKEN 30 SECONDS AT MOST

[awsok]

there's so much we don't know about baylan and shin it fascinates me! like at all times i am thinking about:

what was baylan's relationship with his own master like (and how has that influenced his relationship with shin)?

what was baylan like as a jedi knight? (did he ever question the order before it fell? what was he like as a general during the clone wars?)

did he ever have a padawan when he was part of the order? if so, what was their relationship like (and how did it end)?

how did baylan survive order 66 and the jedi purge?

what caused baylan to see the jedi as "weak" with "no future"?

what was shin's life like before she met baylan? (did she know she was force-sensitive? did she ever have family or a community?)

how did shin and baylan meet? what drew him to her (or her to him)?

what made baylan decide to train shin? (was he looking for an apprentice? or did he just stumble across her, realise she was force-sensitive and — what? decide she could be useful? want to protect her from inquistors?) what made shin agree to be trained?

how old was shin when they met (and as a result, how long has baylan been training shin)?

how did their relationship develop? when we see them in ahsoka there was an unexpected warmth between them: mutual trust, a hint of playfulness. but there is also a significant distance: baylan gives the orders and shin follows, shin asks questions but rarely receives answers. baylan is visibly furious and protective when ahsoka throws shin into that rock in 1x04, yet a few short episodes later he sends shin away and leaves her to fend for herself. did they use to be closer? or is this as close as they've ever been?

how does baylan see shin (both what he consciously tells himself and what does he really feel)?

how does shin see baylan (both what she consciously tells herself and what she really feels)?

baylan said he was training shin to be "more than a jedi": what does that mean exactly? shin clearly draws on her anger for power and both wield sith-esque orange-red lightsabers. yet baylan also criticises anakin and ahsoka's legacy of "death and destruction" and claims to "serve a greater good".

and of course. what the fuck is baylan's mission?

this is absolutely an invitation to put your headcanons and theories in a reblog/the tags/the replies/my askbox/your own post/literally anywhere as long as i can read it. they make me soo crazy and i need to know everyone's headcanons right now immediately. pleak

[stardustedknuckles]

Thank you all for the good vibes, I am in fact now housed for next year after 8 weeks and 300 bucks worth of rejected application fees.

[astarionass]

im just saying how fucking pissed would viago be if he lost not just one but TWO crows to the dellamortes. TWO separate de riva’s who are so horrendously down bad for two different dellamortes. sorry viago. the comedy here is insane and teia knows it

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

ATW10MV just has almost everything I love about music in one song, sound-wise. I love the subtle nod to her country-rock roots with the slide guitar intro and how the electric guitars kind of lilt throughout in the production. I am SUCH a sucker for string instruments (especially cello, which is my favourite instrument, and violin) and I love how the string section sweeps in almost like it’s orchestral before the first bridge (assuming it’s synth and not real but still) and then the trumpet follows. I love the subtle synth in the background as a nod to her later work in 1989 and later. I love how the percussion and synths definitely lean more into the 80s sound for the final section from “did the love affair maim you too” on and the breathiness of the harmonies, and how the orchestral bits come in to fade the song out in such a grand fashion. It’s just so… cinematic, for lack of better word.

I LOVE THIS SONG!

[triopsarecute]

Come to think of it ORV had a better impact on my mental health than my therapist.

[tuiyla]

“Why isn’t Santana nicer after coming out”

Okay so I bring this up in the meta post I’m working on and I don’t want to hijack a post about Quinntana with just my issues on how the fandom perceives Santana so here goes, side note rant post.

As a Santana stan first human being second Gleek third, there are many many aspects of the larger fandom’s interpretation of Santana’s character that bother me. Unsurprisingly to anyone who’s talked to me for more than a second most of my issues come down to a gross misunderstanding of her inner turmoil and particularly all the mess surrounding IKAG. Santana spell it out in Sexy when she confesses her love for Brittany that she’s a bitch because she’s angry and she’s angry because she’s scared. Some people, even though it’s an excellent moment of self-reflection that could serve as a basis for understanding much of Santana’s character, still choose to get so close to the point and then miss it by about a mile.

I’m referring to the take that “Santana should have just been nicer when she was out.” I’ve witnessed legitimate confusion surrounding her behaviour post-outing (emphasis on outing) because people are shocked she’s still a bitch even after that, I suppose. Her anger and therefore her bitchiness was supposed to come from fears regarding her sexuality, so being out should solve all her problems and make her a nice person, right? I hope that writing it out like that makes people see the problem here. First off, obviously and most importantly but somehow still in a “needs to be said” way: Santana was outed. She didn’t come out, she was outed. She was terrified of what people would say if they knew she was a lesbian and then suddenly everyone knew, before she was ready. Shocking, I know, but for some reason that didn’t solve all her problems. Not to mention, being out came at the cost of being rejected by a close family member that undoubtedly shook her sense of self. That Santana continued to be angry “even after” having been outed shouldn’t be some big revelation. No shit she didn’t suddenly find enlightenment and inner peace upon being dragged out of the closet through an act of cruelty.

Second, coming out, even when one is outed as a lesbian to her whole state on television, is a process. Santana’s main source of fear wasn’t the process of coming out but the state of being perceived as the Other. She was terrified of being an outsider and judged for her sexuality and her fears are only proven right once the secret is out. That’s something she’ll carry for the rest of her life, even when she’s happily married and her relationship with her grandmother begins to mend. And that’s not to sound all bleak about queer existence because it doesn’t mean she’s doomed for a sad, angry life or anything, it just means that dealing with her deepest insecurities and fears is... a process. When we leave Santana as a newlywed, she’s around 21 years old. Honestly, it’d be a miracle if she had it all figured out by that point, particularly given her acute allergic reaction to vulnerability. Does she strike you as the kind of girl who willingly walks into therapy to sort out her misplaced feelings of anger? Didn’t think so.

Third, and this is two-fold, Santana is both considerably softer in the later seasons than she used to be and she’s also just never going to be a nice person, period. We could make it three-fold and point out that progress isn’t linear but let’s take it one step at a time. Santana is a kind person but not a nice one. From season 3B onwards and particularly in seasons 4 and 5 we see her forming deeper bonds with people other than Brittany and she even has a realization about using her bitch powers for good by the end of season 5. She has been using them for good ever since she first opened herself up to the possibility of letting people in and being her true self around them. So to me, complaining that Santana isn’t suddenly a ~much better person~ after being out is faulty on account of her does becoming a better friend and person as the show goes on. I think people’s problem is that she doesn’t become nice, but like I said that’s because she’s not. She just isn’t. In my ideal Glee future where Santana does get the help she needs and sorts out her emotional baggage, she becomes a much healthier adult capable of not sabotaging her friendships. But that still doesn’t make her nice. She will always have her signature snark and and she’ll always be ready to dish some insults out. Is that a good thing, that’s not the point here. The point is that she does become less cruel and more open to letting her kind heart actually show as the series goes on and still being rude to people doesn’t negate that.

I could go on, such as about the fact that Santana’s still a fictional character whose snappy one-liners and page-long takedowns are a part of her appeal. Glee wasn’t gonna stop utilizing Naya’s comedic delivery and turn Santana into a less recognizable version of herself, nor should they have. And like I say, nor should Santana’s continued prickly behaviour take away from the fact that she does soften as the show goes on. Then we have the issue of progress not being linear and faling back into old habits being perfectly realistic, and then we can also talk about how Santana’s issues go far beyond accepting her sexuality so it’d be unrealistic for her to drop her all defense mechanisms even if she becomes perfectly content sexuality-wise. She rightly identifies fears about being perceived and judged for her sexuality in Sexy and concludes that that’s why she’s angry and lashing out all the time, but it’s only a source of that. Although it’s a big part of her character and journey, it’d be wrong to reduce Santana just to her sexuality. That’s how you reach false conclusions like “oh she should have just been way nicer post-season 3,” because you ignore her general feelings of insecurity and how deep-seated this instinct to close off and lash out is.

I hope you’ve enjoyed this impromptu Santanalysis post, it’s been a while since I’ve written one not as a reply to an ask. Quinntana post coming soon, until then please remember to read way too much into a decade old silly Fox show and when someone misinterprets your faves, go get that shovel and start digging.

[lett-them-eatt-cake]

Priscilla won’t even address she let her ex boyfriend molest Lisa because she knows it happened

As a mother you are supposed to protect your child and not stand by the abusive asshole. I can’t stand women who chose an abusive man over the safety of their children

When Priscilla releases that book next year she’s gonna gaslight Lisa and talk shit about Michael Jackson

Exactly. Priscilla should have chosen her daughter over that creep. She was responsible for Lisa’s safety and she definitely failed in that department. She knew what was happening and she let it go on for YEARS and then basically blamed Lisa for it happening in the first place. It’s disgusting.

She also knows that if she addresses it that it will just draw more attention to the fact that she was an abusive and irresponsible mother, so she shrugs it off and pretends it didn’t happen.

I have no doubt she will try to gaslight Lisa in her new book and make an attempt to rewrite history to make it look like Lisa was crazy. Did you see that video from earlier where Priscilla is asked about Lisa’s book and she said that Lisa was just writing whatever came to her in that moment!?!? Like what?? She completely brushed it off as if Lisa hadn’t been spending her whole life experiencing her abuse and processing what was happening to her!

Priscilla also knows that if she talks about Michael Jackson that it will be a good distraction from her wrong doings. Michael Jackson was/is a big name so if she talks about him, she can put the attention on him instead and also put part of the blame on him.

I also wonder if Priscilla even finished reading Lisa’s book. She said a few days ago that she had not even read it which is so weird to me. Like why haven’t you even read your own daughter’s memoir and then show up at an event for her book?? She’s just so infuriating.